Today I woke up and I felt like my world wasn't really centered. I lay in bed and let my thoughts run rampant. While that might sound like nothing to others, it was a very big deal to me. I am one that is almost always in control, so releasing that control and allowing my thoughts to bounce all over the place was somewhat liberating.
I have often said that even though I am a serious person, I don't take myself too seriously. I have come to realize that there are things in life that I can do absolutely nothing about. For the most part I feel that I have reached that place in my life because of my belief system. There are a lot of people that say they believe in a higher power. They refuse to give this higher power a name. It is as if they are playing the odds. Acknowledging that there is a being that is all powerful, but refusing to call him God. Well I believe in God and I believe that he desires for me to acknowledge him by his name. I feel that I can claim all through in the Name of God and his Son Jesus Christ. That is after all the basis of Christianity. Accepting that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. I do that. I embrace that. I find that when I stray from that my life is not right. When I stray from that...I can justify certain things that I allow to occur in my life. When I can't allow myself to face God, then I know that I am not living Christ like and nothing goes right in my life. It is really quite sad.
That is kind of where I feel I have been lately. I want to get away from that place. It is very difficult though. I guess as this year draws close to the end, my mind is where it is supposed to be and that ultimately I will get to where God wants me to be. I will not allow others that are confused about what they believe in to hamper my path back to him. I claim my reunion with him.